a long walk back, in pictures

From History Books
to Camera Lenses.

Personal · Seven years, give or take · 8 min read

Life really knows how to surprise us. I used to be just a normal History Hons. student, studying things I wasn't even passionate about. I never imagined that one day I'd end up working in multimedia, with cameras, editing and storytelling becoming such a big part of my life.

Polaroid: with a mentor in a Delhi market
Polaroid: Ashish and Sosa, black-and-white Kodak slide selfie
Polaroid: holding the new Sony lens
how it all started

The kid who wasn't supposed to make films.

Seven years have passed since then. There have been ups and downs, good days and stressful ones, but that's just how life moves. Through everything, my dad has been my strongest support. Whatever I wanted to do, he always pushed me forward and believed I could do it.

I'm really grateful for that. There is a version of this story where I quietly finished my degree, took a teaching job, and never picked up a camera. He's the reason that version doesn't exist.

Shillong College years · the first wins, the first stages.
shillong

The place that changed everything.

The four years I spent in Shillong played a huge role in who I became. Something about that place made me slow down and notice life differently. During those years, I picked up a camera and felt a spark. I started enjoying capturing moments, emotions and everyday stories.

Creating small things like videos, photos or illustrations felt real and pure. There was no pressure, no deadlines, just simple joy. I didn't even realise it back then, but those moments I'm shaping my future.

The first real cameras. The first real assignments.
Collage: behind the camera through the years — in forests, studios, on event nights
Different rooms, same camera. Different cameras, same kid.
dreaming big with sosa

I was so hopeful, and so fearless.

Back then, my friend Sosa Do Yobin and I I'm studying History, but my hearts I'm somewhere else. I always talked about doing something creative and meaningful. One of my biggest dreams was to make a feature film about the struggles of people in Arunachal.

I took it seriously. I recorded music for it inside Sosa's small apartment. I skipped classes, brainstormed for hours and imagined the film reaching festivals someday. Those memories still make me smile because I was so hopeful and fearless.

"What if I just made the thing?"
— us, in a small apartment, 2 a.m., probably wrong but completely sure

Late-night plans for a feature film. I meant it.

I was studying History, but my hearts I'm already in a film no one had made yet.

— me, looking back
Different cities. Same chase.
growing up

Losing some innocence along the way.

As time passed and responsibilities increased, life got faster. Somewhere in the middle of that rush, I feel like I lost a bit of the innocence I had while creating things back then. Today everything feels more competitive and planned.

But even now, I still hope that I'll reconnect with that old vibe. The one where the camera was just a camera, and a frame was just a frame, and you didn't think about reach or impressions before you pressed the shutter.

The studio years. Less innocence. A little more craft.
Collage: behind the scenes on shoots, gigs and stage nights
And somewhere along the way, it became a job, and the job became a habit.
still moving forward

Surprised, and grateful, in that order.

I don't know what the future holds, but I'm happy I chose this path. Moving from Harappan Civilization chapters to holding a camera and creating stories feels like a surprising but beautiful journey.

And who knows, maybe someday Sosa and I will actually make that film. Or maybe a bigger dream will show up. For now, I'm just grateful for how far I've come and excited for whatever comes next.

Some of these are old. Some are very old. All of them are kept.
thanks for reading.
Written & photographed by Ashish Tamang · From Shillong to Delhi, 2017 to 2024
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